Did I do anything interesting for my birthday? No. I didn't even leave the house. I did fix myself a box of Velveeta macaroni and shells. Whoohoo! Such excitement.

I didn't hear from Eros or Cupid, but I knew I wouldn't. I understand why and am not hurt. I didn't hear from my children and I lay that at my ex's feet. That man needs to see a shrink and get over it already. I was extremely hurt that I did not hear from my parents. Jeez, even an e-card or e-mail saying happy birthday would have meant a lot to me. There is so much I want to say in regards to them... but I won't. You know, it's sad when a kid wishes they had been adopted instead of being born to the parents they were. It's natural to want love from one's parents. I don't have that. I need to stop looking for it.

Thank you to everyone who sent me birthday wished. I appreciate them more than you know. *grins* I do love that feature ICQ has, reminding those on my contact list it was my birthday. Hey I can't expect the world to remember when I forgot my own birthday in 1998 and 2001. Yes, I really did forget. Rather, I wasn't paying attention to the date and it passed me by.

Amore called me at 5:04pm to wish me happy birthday. He is so sick (leukemia) and for him to make that effort (and it was) means meant the world to me. He wanted me to know he didn't forget. I had a good cry after we got off the phone. Not self-pity tears... tears for him. And I am crying now. I love him dearly and it hurts so bad that I am forced (by the VA) to stay here in West Virginia (because of my claim).

OK... my meds are kicking in and I cannot see through my tears.