know... I know... I have not updated this since January 16. But I have a good excuse... honest! I had password errors and could not access any of my site. Thanks to good ol' Blogger though, I was able to fix the problem.

Life has been nutty so say the least. I had surgery on April 23 to remove cysts from my ovaries. It was getting to the point where for more than 5 days every month I was doubled over in pain... feeling as though I had knives inside of me. Not fun. Hopefully this will get better now. I am tired of taking powerful narcotics (legal) to dull the pain. I like being in control.

My VA claim has STILL not been settled. I am getting very angry about this. They are taking their sweet time, and don't care what happens in regards to me and my health. Thankfully, where the surgery was concerned, I managed to get Medicaid so I don't have horrendous medical bills to pay off. Most of my medications are covered by Medicaid, so at least in that regards things are better.

I have been dealing with a lot of different personal issues, some of which I am sure I will be writing about at later dates. Two are Post Traumatic Stress Disorder and Anorexia Bulimia. There. I said them. I am dealing with these on my own, but at least now I am dealing with them. And now that I "understand", I am starting to heal.

Things are starting to look up. I am planning a move out of state. No offense to people who like in West Virginia, but I hate it here. It is not home and never will be. And now that I am starting to heal... I am able to look forward to the future instead of being stuck in the present and haunted by the past.

I have finally decided to start writing again. I am researching ideas for a book I have been contemplating for the past few years. My writer's block is starting to leave and I have found new motivation within myself. I even wrote a song last night, something I have not been able to do in a very long time.

Time to wrap this up. I will be updating and ranting and raving far more often not that I have the password problems fixed.

Be well all...

Never be afraid to live your dreams...

Many blessings on your journeys and adventures.
I shall continue on mine now.
Psyche

Dream lofty dreams, and as you dream, so shall you become.
Your vision is the promise of what you shall one day be.
-- James Allen

And so it begins...

"Begin at the beginning and go on til you come to the end; then stop." - Lewis Carroll

And so then... I shall. This is the beginning... who knows where this journey shall lead me.