32 years ago at this moment (6:05 am PDT) I was born.

Happy birthday to me!

I spent much of yesterday in tears not understanding why. It's not hormones nor turning 32. I think it was and is more from knowing I will be disappointed today. I won't hear from my children. My Eros cannot call me today. I doubt my parents will contact me. It is on holidays and special occasions that I am most reminded about how lonely I truly am.

Too bad I can't spend today as I did Christmas... drunk. *sighs* Comfortably numb is best at times like these.