Written more than 2 years ago... I just rediscovered it in an old email account. How sad that so much has not changed.

My heart aches remembering.....
It hurts to look back on a time when you felt as though you held
the world in your hands. Now it seems that everything I have
ever touched has turned to ashes. I used to believe in myself.
When things started to turn bad I kept wishing and praying that
someday my dreams would come true and I would finally find some
happiness in this world. I believed in love. I believed that if
I did good that good things would come to me. Now I have lost my
faith.