I know... I know... I haven't updated in a while. *hangs head*

Hey wait! It's my site. I don't have to update is I don't want to. *chuckles*

Well... since I have already started... and 'cause I am in such a good mood...

The VA finally began to settle my claim. I was granted 60% disability and was just increased to 70%. Wheeeeee! A 215 dollar a month raise! *shaking head in amusement* The VA is still not done settling my claim. I have been assured that by the time they are done I will be receiving 100%. The VA has finally begun to admit that the Navy made a huge mistake keeping me in Boot Camp status for 15 months. That is what I have been wanting. Validation. I wanted them to admit they fucked-up. And I want to make sure that what happened to me never happens to anyone else.

I did just find out that I have osteoporosis. *scowls* I am not happy about that at all. It is located in my left hip and low spine. I guess *duh* this explains the stress fractures and spinal defects that have been discovered. It is better to know now though... I can take the proper measures to prevent it from getting worse.

Hold on for this one folks! In the ongoing "female" saga... the doctors discovered that every cycle I go through labor, without the benefit of a baby. Yes, my hormones are all whacked. I had no clue I was having "labor pains" until my GYN discovered that my uterus was contracting. No wonder I have been in severe pain. The doctors again discussed removing my ovaries. NoNoNoNoNo! The VA doctor wanted to give me shots to shut down my ovaries. Did I mention no? That is not even an option. And now that I have been diagnosed with osteoporosis I need all the estrogen I can get. What I found most amusing... the doctors say that my only other option may be to get pregnant. OK, maybe I am warped ( moi? *shocked* ) but I think that the doctors advising me to get pregnant for medical reasons is funny. I want it written as a prescription so I can frame it on my wall. So who knows... maybe there will be morning sickness in my future. But please... sperm donors need not apply. I will pick out my own candidates. *winks*

Things in my life are finally starting to look up in a very positive way. I am writing again, something I love to do. Writing is my outlet... my therapy. In the past I have written whole novels but never was satisfied enough with them to have them submitted to a publisher. Due to various reasons, they are no longer available to edit. Perhaps someday I will rewrite those stories. Or perhaps those stories have been adequately told and will never again see the light of day. I have changed much since those stories were written. I am a completely different person with new stories to tell.

The sun has gone to bed and so must I...

Never be afraid to live you dreams.

Many blessings on your journeys and adventures.
I shall continue on mine now.
Psyche